Y .Tuesday, July 1, 2008.
Home sweet home ? I never complained that my home is not good , neither is my parents . They are giving me all the best they could . But i just cant stay at home , feeling reckless ! Is it that my home is not good enough for me to stay put at or my parents are irritating ? Sometimes i feel so but after all , they are still the ones i love most . Feeling hard to open my mouth and say "Sorry! I love you" to them . I don't know what is stopping me from doing so . I admit that i was always so harsh to them when they are just trying to asked me to study well . Teacher said that I'm smart . But the laziness of me pull me down . I always have the urge of really sit down and strive for a good result but something is stopping me from doing so . My human clock is going the anti-clockwise direction . My face prove it , i been looking so tired all these while but i didn't notice it . My health is falling , once again , due to lack of sleep . All this causes me unable to attend school . Just one full day of lesson already make me feel so sick ! I have the heart to study , but attending school daily with full attention is now beyond what i can do . Times and times of dis encouragement makes me feel so sick of going to school . I don't know when will my perseverence will run out and make me to quit school out of anger , I been stopping myself all these while , I don't want my effort to go into the drain . I know that i really changed and it's hard to change back . I feel that all i type may be rubbish to my parents as I'm not proving it . But these are all out of my heart , I'm still struggling ! I just wish to have a home that i can do whatever i like . But it's not possible , never!
